On My Duck-ness

I have been doing not much in the way of anything recently, hence no posts, but that is not unusual (the not posting). But I have been contemplating my duckhood. What does it mean for me to be an, as I describe myself a neurologicaly evolved Mallard? Some will say that I should spend my time campaigning for animal welfare, or somesuch relevant issue. No doubt that would be a great thing to spend my time doing - although I don't thing I could offer the unique animal perspective they are looking for (Do animals suffer, do they understand they are going to die? and revelations to these questions that they are seeking.) Because although I understand that I will die, and that I suffer in a way that I assume is comparable to human suffering, I can't say the same for my duck relatives. I realise, and always have that I am very different from them and can say nothing with surety about what they feel or understand or experience. And scientific investigations are not something I will willingly subject myself to (let us hope that I won't have to undergo them unwillingly either).

So then what is the purpose of my life here, away from the wetlands? My work is not to eat and find a mate and experience the duck experience, so then what should I be doing with myself?

Over the past couple of weeks of contemplation I think this comes back to the freedom of the individual. I grant myself those rights as obviously (obvious to myself) I deserve them. I must be free to do the things I want to do, and the things I enjoy, which is partially what I have been doing up until now. And if people judge that I am doing wrong in not doing the things they perceive I should be doing then that is that. I must get on with my life and discovering what it is to live in this unusual (perhaps unique) way, this half human half duck (half human in a neurological, not a physical way) development.

Anyway, those musings I have touched upon here I will be continuing through the rest of my life I expect, but that is what I would like to say today.

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And also that I have been reading the Barbelith forum quite a bit recently. Though i do not think I would like to become a member, I makes for a thoughtful read.
Following on from that I have been discovering The Invisibles, which is all very exciting and inspiring.